week of fun and laughters!!! :D
hmmm... another week that has passed i must say im feeling better now erm... hahha well this whole week in sch nothing much happened jus yesterday there was this white english bitch who came into the class thinking that she was the god or someting fucking snobbish even my friends were like complaining about her hahha hopefully we will get a change er... well in sch we had to stay back on one of the days to watch a documentory on tusnami well it was nice watching it cus u get to knw how does everything starts i rmb watching the prog in HKG but i had to leave half way as i hav to catch the early flight back to singapore so it was nice to hav watch it all in sch oh in sch during PE hahah i scored all three goals for my team hahah and missed a few dam im good! hahhaa yea but if it wasnt for mikeal and regan who always pass me the ball i dnt think i would be able to score so many goals hahah so was like quite satisfying for me to kick the balls in the goal hahha and i also felt that my satmina has dropped like mad hahha i hav to consistenly sit down to gian back my breathe before i can continue playing hahha im getting old... hais... yups erm during art on wenesday i sneek out from the naggy bitch class to get into drama prac hahah nice to see all the boys and some idiots that came back again after quiting wat losers... haha yups well micheal was like making fun of me wat the hell hahah hais nvm la... then today during srt prac again he put ice on my back hahha wah fuck it was cold man hahha and the class today was so much fun all the funny acts acted by my classmates hahah oh wells i think im starting to gain back my confidence now so yay!!! hahha hmmm jus hopefully i wnt hav to write up on my down fall again and all those swearing words hahaha oh hey ppl do come down to the acs barker carnival and try out the food in my class food stall i contributed something so must come and try! oh hey if u guys havent got ur tics pls tell me so that i can sell them to u oks thats it ciao~!!! :)
FUCK EVERYONE!!! i hate being in singapore!!!!
2weeks has passed... i dnt really knw wat to say now like about the things that happened in the 2 weeks erm basically busy as always having lots of classes on drama first SRT then CXV then remidals... i think im gonna break down soon and worst! i jus found out that be4 my bdae passes i still dnt get accepted by any sch i will be going to the army... :'( why is life so unfair i hate singapore! i hate being chinese! i hate everythign! i jus wanna die everythign thing seems so hard for me to get i knw i brag alot saying things negetive about me but its true! i dnt knw i seem to be lost now i jus feel like crying and let everythign out certian things i wanna say but i cnt this blog is jus to public... now im really stuck if i go to trinity college i hav to forfiet SRT cus its a 3years course and it means so much to me but no one knws even my director thinks that i dnt really like srt he felt that everytime i go for trng i will always be tired yawning and all but its jus too much things for me to handle!!! worst! ppl in srt dnt really like talk to me im like a fucking loser who is like always keeping to myself everyone in srt is jus so good the pressure is always there in me to be better but how to! im so tired i jus got no energy anymore and its only the beginning of the year for CXV i hav to go for every lessons WHY!!! cus i really wan to be somebody when i grow up even how tired or sick i am i try to hide telling myself that this is everythign i got i hav to make good use of it... and now the most important thing in my life O's i think this is wat i hav always wanted, a cert, that someone would treat me like a normal person rather than a NT student! everything seems to be important in my life everythign i wanted has come to me in this year which i really need to concerntrate but wat can i do competitions are high for all this things im taking i cnt seem to be in tip top condition for everything i hardly even get rest and now the NS thing i dnt knw wats the fuck with singapore but the truth is that NS sucks! there r so many butches out there who cnt wait to be guys why dnt they go but we as guys espacially ppl like me who needs alot of time jus to finish studies and all by the time i get out of ns i think i would be 27 then wat to do?! start from the bottom then work all the way to the top when ppl my age would already be big business man! fuck! and those whites who the hell they think they r jus becus they r white and the r suppose to be like a figure of good up bringing and all they get all the good stuff modelling dnt hav to say even in theatre they get all the leads they r jus fucking WHITE! wats wrong! dam! i dnt knw i think i better stop if not i think im gonna blow up!
First Week of 2005!!!
the first week of the year is about to pass and i must say that its a good start hahha the first day of sch was funny alot of ppl were caught for hair nails socks and need not to say i got caught too for hair then had to go to taka and re dye my hair hais... hahha then went back to sch. while this week a few things happen, staff dedication service happened this friday and i screw up the middle part of the dance hahhaha sorry man i was nervous as hell Dr. Ong was jus sitting in fornt of me hahaha dam... erm then did some carnival planning and stuffs hey if anyone wanna buy tics from me jus tag my board to let me knw okz... ok then basically after sch everyday i will come back home to study weird but hahha alot of ppl r starting to study for their o's already so yea oh yah and this year i dnt knw y but i hav the very nice feeling of studying in sch hahha cus my teachers r all dam good ok lets see who i got eng and form teacher Mrs Ravi maths Mr Sim who is lame but fun in someways phy Mr Lau chem Mr Soh lit i got Mrs Aw who is dam good her notes r the best man Hist i got Louis who is 4ever dam great and ss is Tang! hahha but he's the best la in ss hahha yupz all this teachers r gonna help me get my O's and im dam happy cus all r so good in their subs and weirdly i am 100% awake in all classes hahhaa and ive become more attentive hahha! well i guess im really aiming hard for very good grades for O's ah!!!!! cnt wait for all of this to be over!!! :D oh this week i also went for my first SRT class srt is singapore repertory theatre erm yea i went for my classes dam n hahah micheal was there yups i guess im gonna enjoy srt alot cus of all the funny ppl and my seniors from acjc and jared kwok a ex barker boy hahha yay~ hahah jus hopefully i can keep my good habits up and burn through all the way till O's finish! yups thats it ciao~
